I have stated many times that I am a hobbyist photographer and that I do not aspire to do this professionally despite my obsession with it. I do truly love photography, and I love looking at other people's photography.
I have always had an admiration for people that do this for a living in any of the genres of photography. I was always concerned that if I ever had to produce photographs for a living that I would lose my love for it. It happened with computers. I used to build computers for fun back in the early to mid 90's, but once I started doing IT work professionally, computers weren't fun anymore. I didn't want that to happen with my photography. I shoot almost 100% for my own pleasure. (I recently went to my granddaughter's High School graduation and took photos for my own collection, but I shared a couple, and one in particular that of the entire graduating class throwing their mortarboards into the air that was a real hit with the class and faculty. That was fun).
I would do favors for people here and there, and I might take a few shots of something for them, and it was usually portrait type stuff. I always give my obligatory disclaimer that I am not a professional and that I don't do professional work and that what they get is what they get. I am not going to spend a lot of time going back over and over to retouch or photoshop things to get what they want. They can pay someone to do that.
Over the summer, I agreed to bring my camera to a company BBQ and picnic and just shoot. They just wanted random shots of the event and people enjoying each other. I reluctantly agreed, and I gave my usual disclaimer along with a statement of no guarantee of a specific time that I might be done with the final photographs. They seemed to be fine with it. I took a lot of shots (around 200-250), and I had a blast doing it. I produced a total of 83 photos, of which I gave them 75 of the photos. I did it for free, and I told them to do with the photos what they wanted. They ended up giving me a $100 gift card as a "thank you" gift. I thought that was pretty cool of them.
So a couple of months ago, the "marketing director" of our firm asked me to do a "few"shots for a staff directory that would include staff photos. The staff had been asked to submit their own "favorite" photos of themselves, but there were a few that either didn't submit photos or said that they didn't have any to submit. I agreed, again, for free, and I gave my usual speech. (This would be for the same marketing director that I purchased a Nikon P&S camera for when she started with the firm a couple of years ago, but the camera hasn't been out of the box once since I bought it for her). I took my umbrellas, stands, speedlights, and backdrops up to work and setup for a few shots. I ended up with about 12 people that needed photos. Not a big deal. I took the shots, and started working on them in my spare time. Apparently, the marketing idiot had waited until the last minute to get these done, so by the time that she had asked me to get involved, she was already being pushed to produce them. So she starts nagging me about them. I told her that I would get them done as soon as I could, but that I didn't agree to a time line, and that if she had wanted that then she should have commissioned a professional photographer and setup a deadline. Once I produced the photos, she didn't like several of them and asked me to redo them. I told her that I would, but that I would get them to her when I could, and that probably wouldn't be anytime soon. She didn't like that and started arguing about it that I needed to get on it immediately. I had to laugh a bit at that point. I told her to forget it and just make due with what she had. She wanted to continue to argue about it until I finally told her to get the hell out of my office and to never ask me to do any photo work for her in the future. I vowed that I would never again do something like that as a favor for anyone, and it reinforced my decision to never pursue photography professionally.
Well, I am stupid. Because I did do it again, and right after that, as a matter of fact. One of the attorneys that I really like had asked me last year to take a photo of him and 2 other attorneys for some group/committee that they all belong to. It was to be published, but I did it for free. It was quick and easy, and the shot turned out okay. Not amazing, but it was a decent shot, and all 3 liked it, and they all thanked me for doing it. Fast forward to this year. Same guy approaches me, and he asks if I will take another shot for this year's group, which had added an extra person. Wow, I was still reeling from my last bad experience that had just happened about 2 weeks prior to his. I agreed to do it because I really like this guy, and he has always been there for me when I have needed him at work. We took the shots, and I worked up a couple of photos for them to choose from. Then I get a group email from the new guy in the photo wanting things changed around. Rather than go through all of the changes that he wanted, I offered to reshoot it. Nope, he didn't want that. Then I get a call from the same marketing gal telling me how to go about editing the shot!! Before I could respond to that, I get another email from the new guy saying that he had brought "Linda" (yes, I changed her name) in on the project so she could advise me. That was followed by an email to the entire group from Linda which was ordering me to make the changes (which I am not subordinate to her in any capacity at work, let alone for a volunteer job), and berated me for my previous submissions and not consulting her first (when she wasn't involved in the project at all anyway). I went to the attorney that had asked me to do this, and he started apologizing the second that I walked into his office before I could even say a word. I just laughed, and I told him that I wasn't upset with him at all. I told him about the staff directory project, and he just put his face in his palm. He felt bad that it went sour so quickly. I told him that it was no big deal, but that I was done with the project at that point, and they would just have to roll with what they had. (We laughed, and he poured us both each a glass of Auchentoshen 18, and we had a nice chat over some really tasty scotch. That alone was worth the hassle. LOL). But that was truly the final straw for me. No more favors. My photography will be 100% for my own pleasure from this point forward.
I must say, I have always admired people that do this sort of thing for a living, but every once and a while, something happens that reminds me how much admire them. LOL. You pro's must have the patience of saints. I know that the stress is a lot different for freelance journalistic and sports photographers since the whole process is so much different (and I won't even get into how competitive that is), but having to do that for a means of income would be a nightmare for me. I do so enjoy the freedom of just being able to take shots of whatever I want, being able to take whatever time that I want to produce something (if at all), and how it turns out is entirely up to me. I do love that. I am forever the student (my Sensei would always say that to me. "Senpai, be ever the student. At all things.") I can learn this at my own rate/pace, and I can make my mistakes and learn and it won't affect my livelihood. It affords me the luxury of experimenting at my leisure. But I do respect and truly admire those of you who do this full time, and even part time, as professionals. I know that you are doing something that you love for a living and a career, and there are few things that are quite as rewarding as that. But I know that I would probably be in jail right now for beating someone half to death with a lens if I had to put up with that kind of crap all the time. LOL!!